Mental Health

The world seems to be shrouded in evil. I feel helpless and desperate in my own life. I crave small acts of kindness.

I was repeatedly bullied, manipulated, stalked by her friend, and she tried to “ruin my life” by giving me a bad reputation and treating me differently and like a monster because I was different from her. For years.

Today is always a little bittersweet for me. I get to spend it with my kids and I really do look forward to the day but on the other hand I myself have no memories of ever celebrating wiith my own father. He died almost 10 years ago now.

My wife is definitely trying to drum up the courage to kick me out. There's no other reason for that kind of anger. Yeah, it's the same things she's always gotten mad at me for, but not like this. It's forced, not her normal anger. I may have a job to escape to, but holy hell, I am in so...much...pain, and I only sat here off and on trying to find other jobs. Oof! I am so worried these pains will make it impossible to juggle a job and survive. Contrary to what my family believes, these pains are not fake. I am not lying about them. They are horrible. OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuch!

Hoo boy! She's been extra hateful and mean to me for the past few days, and the latest ammunition I've given her is not fixing the screen door (and/or screwing it up) to her liking. My chronic pains and the medicinally induced GERD (dizziness, extra pains, ringing in my ear) have not been helping, so what happens? She snaps at me about fixing the door, and so I do (which, yielding to her abuse doesn't exactly make anything better, 🙄 ), and I just found out a moment ago I screwed it up again. The damn main door handle will latch onto the screen door handle. I really really did not feel like working on it today, and I shouldn't have, pppp! Welp, I can expect to hear her scream in the morning when she leaves.