Everything.

no real words, but sudden and anxious pointing at everything, waving hands around, and making "ahh"s and "uh"s like a really scared ass frustrated and anxious deaf kid trying to tell you that everything is very wrong

Pretty much… this

I’m still puzzling out how I can empathise with myself the way I can empathise for others.

It’s not a sad thought, just something I don’t have a frame of reference for. Like not being able to imagine what it feels like to move a muscle I’ve never used before.

My provider switched my mood stabilizer a month or so ago, and it seems like I’m finally getting my moods under control. I’ve cleaned, cooked and started taking care of myself again. I was in a bit of a dark place for a few months, and it seems like I’ve emerged. I’m hopeful for once. Now I just need to lose the 10lbs that I put on during that time. CICO does work.

I’m doing great, how are you?

I feel scared to look at my self critically