It’s a very twisted thing about all of this, and it blurs the lines between right and wrong. I’m finally starting to understand why some people will genuinely try to argue that a bigot is actually a good person, the bigot just hasn’t ever been adversarial toward them. It’s like a mental block, they have to be hit over the head with the information — my cousin’s son is not such a good person, but he’s happened to do good things for my family so none of them see it. There was a point that I would have argued for him before I’d learned the kinds of things he’s done.
I’m sorry, I didn’t realize you actually had a somewhat personal connection to the man. I can understand your perspective, and I genuinely am sorry if I insulted you. I hope you understand that your experience does preclude your association with the blindly devoted.
Forgive me if I’m wrong but it sounds like you aren’t angry at the world, you’re angry at people. I’d be willing to bet you love the natural world, and hate people for denying that they’re a part of a cycle that we all share. For claiming godhood whilst piously masquerading. Burning Eden while God sleeps.
I wouldn’t blame you, if that’s the truth. There are many people who deserve to be hated. The issue with hate, though, is that it’s very toxic. Righteous hatred begets genuine, blind hatred. You won’t even realize that you’re hating things that don’t even really deserve to be hated, simply because they might be tangentially associated with things you justifiably hate. They may not even be associated, it could just be that it reminds you of something you hate — and thus you hate it.
I don’t know what the path out of this mess is for all of us, but it begins and ends with hate. We either learn to put aside the hate or it will immolate all of us from the inside out. This is our only real option. I’m sorry you’ve experienced it, I hope the experience changed you to understand that we’re all in this together. Even the people you hate.